Tomorrow is another trip to Chemoland. So much better than Legoland. No lines, free snacks and heated blankets. Legoland can’t TOUCH heated blankets. I’m one notch past the halfway mark, but can’t stop that horrified feeling. How is Weird Cancer Guy going to get me this time? He’s getting to Brian and wearing him down emotionally. Today was Day 2 of the rock-pulling-up-a-mountain feeling for Brian. It just seems like forever in so many ways. Plus, we’ve got a super-sick Livvie at home with a menacing fever and barky cough. Don’t we have enough punches in the Frequent Illness Card already? I’m supposed to wear a mask around her, but I just can’t do it. When I gave her a teaspoon of honey for her throat, tucked her in and kissed her on the head, she said: “I’ll miss you tomorrow, Mom.” I really hope I can still take care of her tomorrow.
1- My friend Linda, who is also going through breast cancer, gave me a CD with meditations on chemo. I’m hoping it changes my attitude from dread to wildly excited. Every cell in my body is screaming, Noooo! like a chorus of one-eyed Mister Bills.
2- I am ready for battle with: a cape and dinner last night from Jessica; dinner from Shonda tonight; a rad pillow that heats up in the microwave from Kate; and sweet smoothies from Trina (more on that later!)
3- I busted Steven caring about his sister again. I swore I wouldn’t tell her.