Oh man, I’ve got 48 hours until stupidity hits. Chemo #5 is Thursday, so I have to get everything done that requires even a sliver of a brainwave. You know, things like balancing checkbooks, writing sentences, tying shoes. There’s also the race to get overwhelming things done like grocery shopping, putting away laundry and thinking. After round 4, I went to a coffee house. But all they had was pie. Breakfast pie, lunch pie, snack pie, pie pie. I felt like I was trapped in a Portlandia episode. I freaked out and left because I just wanted a cup of soup. Not pie in a cup. The scene repeated itself in the drink aisle at New Seasons. All I wanted was water. Not coconut, gluten-free, bamboo-essence water. Just freaking water. Getting overwhelmed just thinking about it.
THREE POSITIVES:
1- Went on a walk with Brian today up to the volcano, Mt. Tabor, trying to sort out all the details of finishing this out, surgery and what life looks like afterward.
2- Took Livvie to the dentist. Hooray, no cavities!
3- Stayed out in the sun as much as I could today, waiting for spring.
jacki kane 
You will win this race!!! Stupid cancer guy is the stupid person here – totally messing with the wrong chick.
LOVE YOU
Kick some ass
i am praying for sweet dreams and all the comfort you can find.
You’ve got this race in the bag! Sending super healing thoughts for Thursday….xoxo
Love, love, love your writing. You make me laugh at the same time I am crying. Keep it coming! xo
We’ll be thinking about you. Wish we could be there to lend a hand. Hope our good thoughts are of some help.
At least you have something to blame it on. ; )
Hang in there, Jack.
Jackie Mathys (503) 781-2872 From my iPad. And the 96 bus.
Jackie, I admire you so much. You are so strong and amazing in your parenting, blogging this experience and simply getting through it all with your sense of humor in tact.
Please let us know if there’s anything we can do to give you more comfort. Take good care.
Jackie