Sure, I cut my hair as a form of taking control myself instead of waiting for Weird Cancer Guy to do it for me. Plus, we have three vacuums and none of them sucks. So I didn't want to have to clean up a bunch of hair with duct tape. But still, every clump makes …
Thinking about other families tonight
My heart goes out to all of the families who were in or around the horrific shooting at Clackamas Towne Center a couple of hours ago. We know one person who hid in a store, then thankfully escaped unharmed. I hope many more people have stories like that.
What I live for
Remember those knobs on the back of TV sets? We'd reach around and dial that thing up, maxing out the color to eye-blasting range. That's how everything feels right now. Vibrant to the point of circuit overload, then the longing for an emotional blackout. Going to the party last night was amazingly bright with Christmas …
Tonight I’m going to party like it’s not the 19th
Today is another almost-normal day, but I'm not jackleg enough to think this will be the norm. Because on December 19th, the party starts all over again with round 2 of chemo. So for now, I'm going to enjoy every minute of near-normalcy, starting with a holiday party at my friend Sandra's. It might be …
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Look in the mirror
I've got an edgy short haircut. I stopped wearing a bra because heavy metal hurts. I quit wearing make up. And, I have a valid excuse for medical marijuana. Do I FINALLY fit in here in SE Portland? Brian said he draws the line at getting a Subaru station wagon. Today feels like a good, …
Dear Weird Cancer Guy…
Today rocked. Today was as close to normal as I have felt since my chemo A-bomb. I HAD to get out of the house, so I met my pal Maria for coffee. That felt normal. My bud Lisa came over, toting an entire dinner and snacks. Not normal. It's not like people randomly show up …
The word of the day is: Surrender
How can one day feel like three weeks? Today did. When I woke up, my spine was throbbing. Like can't-catch-your-breath throbbing. I tried to walk and it felt like my hip bones were going to pop out and run away from me like a toddler with a cell phone. The advice nurse advised drugs, so …
Wing positive frisbees to Sari
The week before I got diagnosed, my friend Sari was told she had breast cancer. We were both stunned to disbelief. Today she's in surgery, so I've been thinking about her and her family all day. Our kids are in the same grade, we have the same doctors and we even get our hair cut …
Jackie with an E takes us from sleepless to wonderful
Last night was like "Sleepless in Portland" around here. Steven's got a bad chest cold, so we were up helping the poor guy. Our phone line is crossed with someone else's, so we got phantom rings all night. When we pick up the phone, we hear other people's conversations. But nothing about sex! All I've …
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World’s first overweight cancer patient?
What's happening to me? Chemo is turning me into a junk food freak. I want everything I'm not supposed to have: Kraft mac n' cheese, chips and cheese dip, Ruffles and onion dip (Thank you, Lisa and Chris!), and today's latest, Ramen Noodles. Can you actually GAIN weight on chemo? Look how those oranges in …
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