Time warp again

  Coming out of post-surgery fog is so weird. I'm just starting to remember the last few days. One day, I passed out after lunch, then woke up at 6:30 thinking it was morning and why was Livvie up so early? Steven was like, "But Mom, it's the same day." I couldn't get my mind to …

Tom Petty was right!

"The waiting is the hardest part." All I remember about surgery is passing out after one of the nurses pulled the hospital "shower curtain" closed. What the? They were supposed to bring a hot intern to surgery. When I woke up, I was in an identical room with another shower curtain. I kept asking anyone …

Steven takes over

NOTE: Steven is writing this. We decided that since my mom is really tired and can't use her arms, that I would take over the blog for a bit. I remember that cold and rainy day in November when I was at my friend's house. My parents came to pick up my sister and me. …

Cancer’s a joke

Saying yes to help can be pretty uncomfortable. I didn't want to at first. But then I thought this is not just about me. We've got kids. Don't be a jackleg, yo. Let people help because they're our friends and they want to do something. One fundraising website, crafty fair and gigantic auction later, and …

The next thing

Surgery is one week away. Everyone has done so much for us and still, they're asking, "How can we help after surgery?" I've got our kids and dog taken care of, but not much else. This is the week to get organized. Sometimes you don't even know what you need help with or how things …

7 days of denial

It's Spring Break. I'm giving myself 7 days to NOT talk about cancer. I still feel like a Chemosapien with numb fingers and toes, metal mouth and the prospect of losing fingernails. But this week, I'm going to forget about all that and focus on the kids. Weird Cancer Guy is like an obnoxious dude at a …

Never do that again

Weird Cancer Guy isn’t going down easy. Yesterday, I felt like I had metal rods through my heart and throat with a rusty anvil in my stomach. I barely got up all day. Today’s only slightly better. My stomach and throat feel horrible. I'm thirsty, but even water makes me feel sick. When everyone leaves …