Nothing says Aloha like moss-choked Portland...until now. In my obsession with Hawaii, my friends are making it happen! Kate brought over a mango, pineapple, papaya, plant and retro card. Then, Lisa shows up with Hawaiian dish towels and earrings. Aloha, yo! It's like being there. We're going to get there somehow. Thanks Kate and Lisa …
Looking past check in
It's Tuesday. Check-in day for Brian and me. We went to Compote, a sunny little cafe where I got poached egg on kale and crispy hash browns. I'm too tired to make fresh food like that, but boy do I want it. He's anxious for me to come all the way out of this. Me …
Anywhere but in my body
Today, I had a choice: surrender or fight. I'm too exhausted to fight. I was upright a lot yesterday doing laundry, which probably killed my fight today. I've got all the usual suspects on my last nerves - sick stomach, hot-cold flashes, unquenchable thirst and a scalp that randomly erupts like a sprinkler. In an …
What else you got, Weird Cancer Guy?
Not that I really want to find out. But still, I'm wondering what's next. Will my fingernails pop open like trunk lids? Will I become 55% more agitated and annoyed? Or, will actual appendages just fall off? How about we start with my gut? I'm worried when I get a double mastectomy that my gut …
The race before stupid
Oh man, I've got 48 hours until stupidity hits. Chemo #5 is Thursday, so I have to get everything done that requires even a sliver of a brainwave. You know, things like balancing checkbooks, writing sentences, tying shoes. There's also the race to get overwhelming things done like grocery shopping, putting away laundry and thinking. …
Sweet dreams aren’t made of this
Weird Cancer Guy and chemo spill into everything - even dreams. After Round 3, I dreamed that I was stuck back in my childhood in our house with no way out. I woke up feeling like someone picked up my past and pulled it all the way up to my chin like sheets on a …
I heart all of you
"When you go through cancer, it's not just you... It's all your loved ones. They're going through it right with you." Jill Brzezinski, 35-year-old breast cancer survivor Jill Brzezinski is the bravest woman. She bared all for a photo shoot and documentary called "The Light That Shines" (Huffington Post) to show the world what breast …
Out! Damn spots
For once, I'm not talking about cleaning. Today is random spot and throbbing hip joint day. I woke up and noticed new brown spots on my fingertips and palms. Plus, a side order of tingling, numb fingertips. When I walk, it's weird hip pain. What am I, 90? All that just in time for Steven …
That’s the chemo talking
Just when I think Weird Cancer Guy is seriously stifling my spirit, my friends kick his doughy butt. For a look at what my friends said, check out comments from yesterday's post. Today is better. I'm up walking around, but I feel sick and irritated ALL of the time now. When I paged through my …
The pressure of positive thinking
Whoa, it really has been five days since I posted. Round 4 of chemo has seriously wounded me this time. At 3 am one day, I woke up freezing cold and shaking uncontrollably. Then, I got super sick, and Brian had to get up and help me. I felt so bad about that. You don't …
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