Weird Cancer Guy and chemo spill into everything - even dreams. After Round 3, I dreamed that I was stuck back in my childhood in our house with no way out. I woke up feeling like someone picked up my past and pulled it all the way up to my chin like sheets on a …
I heart all of you
"When you go through cancer, it's not just you... It's all your loved ones. They're going through it right with you." Jill Brzezinski, 35-year-old breast cancer survivor Jill Brzezinski is the bravest woman. She bared all for a photo shoot and documentary called "The Light That Shines" (Huffington Post) to show the world what breast …
Out! Damn spots
For once, I'm not talking about cleaning. Today is random spot and throbbing hip joint day. I woke up and noticed new brown spots on my fingertips and palms. Plus, a side order of tingling, numb fingertips. When I walk, it's weird hip pain. What am I, 90? All that just in time for Steven …
That’s the chemo talking
Just when I think Weird Cancer Guy is seriously stifling my spirit, my friends kick his doughy butt. For a look at what my friends said, check out comments from yesterday's post. Today is better. I'm up walking around, but I feel sick and irritated ALL of the time now. When I paged through my …
The pressure of positive thinking
Whoa, it really has been five days since I posted. Round 4 of chemo has seriously wounded me this time. At 3 am one day, I woke up freezing cold and shaking uncontrollably. Then, I got super sick, and Brian had to get up and help me. I felt so bad about that. You don't …
Zombies are more productive
A blog is supposed to be daily, but I just couldn't hang after Round 4. The only way I know how to truly express the level of SUCK is to overuse the letter U. Here goes: Round 4 suuuucked. Every side effect took over from cranked up ear ringing to the complete inability to deal with …
God I’m tired
Not since I got mono in college have I slept this much. After chemo, I slept through dinner all the way until 7 am. My friend Emma drove me to acupuncture yesterday. I woke up on the table and had no idea where I was. So I went back to sleep. Went home and slept …
Bring it on down to Chemoland
Tomorrow is another trip to Chemoland. So much better than Legoland. No lines, free snacks and heated blankets. Legoland can't TOUCH heated blankets. I'm one notch past the halfway mark, but can't stop that horrified feeling. How is Weird Cancer Guy going to get me this time? He's getting to Brian and wearing him down …
Wonder twin powers activate!
Form of... Friends forever. That's my bud, Loy aka Vince Adame. Master drummer, bass player and all-around stud. Sharon, his wife and my other friend forever, took the picture while laughing. We've known each other forever. They're family. See that, Weird Cancer Guy. I'm getting massive support from my friends, so look out. My friends …
“I can’t feel anything.”
Today, we went to see the surgeon to check in on progress and talk about what kind of surgery. She was doing the exam and said she could no longer feel the tumor. WHAA? I took a turn - me either. If some dude was randomly walking down the hall, I would have gotten him …
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